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[15 Feb 2006|12:35pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

i leave on wed mar 22nd and stay there until april 2nd. i hear about our friends kt and kella trying to go places to do good things and here i am, being selfish and going to istanbul for my own gratification. i will try to enjoy myself though in light of this but it is something i will be thinking about when i visit this country. they say its like a small greece, a place where east meets west, somewhere that gives hope to democracies that islamic states can become secular. my dad tells me im making a huge mistake to go there because of its instability. but turkey has been a peaceful democracy despite its 99 percent muslim population since its independence in the 1920s. it even holds one of the seven wonders of the world. it bothers me to no end that my dad cant see through his cloud of ignorance to appreciate the great opportunity that erim has given me by inviting me to his homeland.

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[29 Jan 2006|03:23pm]
i have to go to work.

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[19 Jan 2006|04:34pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

within the span of 17 days i met and fell in love with the most genuine man ive ever met in my life. he was an international student from turkey with lite skin, dark features, an amazing body, and a perfect soul. he had been here since july but i didnt get to meet until the first day of the new year. it was a great way to start my new year but we both knew we had a limited amount of time together. he took me to long beach, newport beach, laguna beach, and santa monica to meet his turkish friends in two days. then we spent three days in san diego with my neighbors and some of our other friends. school started and i only went to one class that week because early in the week i spent every moment with him and on that thursday we went to vegas with a bunch of friends. we stayed in a suite and went to clubs and gambled and made lots of love. when we got home he only had three days left until he had to leave. we spent a lot of time just laying in bed in the morning and talking and deciding what was going to happen in the future. for his last night the group that went to vegas and i took him out to dinner for sushi and sake. lots of sake. in the morning we drove him at 545, he almost missed his flight and i would have been so happy. once we left him at the airport i went back to his apartment that i had to clean and just laid in his bed crying until he called me from salt lake city. i managed to make it to classes after that but didnt calm down until he called me from turkey at 2 in the morning. he was officially an american continent, an ocean, another continent, and a meditteranean sea away from me. i knew it would be difficult but i did not expect it to be this difficult. i cant explain the way he made me feel and the emptiness that has now taken over me. i hope i will recover from this.

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you all know how i love to complain... [07 Dec 2005|01:44pm]
[ mood | cranky ]

finals week, aka the week of death, makes me want to quit college. there is nothing more annoying than having something impede on my normal 8-10 hours of sleep that i can usually rack up. i was up until fourish i think last night and boo finals. they always serve as perpetual reminders that if only i had gone to maybe a couple more classes, or done my reading a couple of weeks ahead of time, then maybe i wouldn't be in such a miserable position. i have one in two hours and its my last one until saturday. fucking saturday, it should be illegal to make me take finals on saturdays. hopefully i can relax and watch project runway and south park tonight.

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[03 Nov 2005|09:39pm]

ok now that i got that out, things are good as usual. my cat is chasing her tail in circles right now. just waiting for jen to come over for drinks. going to a friends house tonight, they do this weekly thing with some girls i knew from this other dorm. i usually get to see my roommates from the sabado house last year so i like going. i like fridays because i only have one class, i work the shift that makes the most money, and i get out in time to go out. plus i get to sleep in cuz im never scheduled on sats!

nov has great movies but i especially cant wait for harry potter 4. nerd.

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[25 Oct 2005|12:36pm]
the good thing about deciding to update more often is that it will waste plenty of time that could be spent finishing my essay due in an hour, reading for my two midterms, or cleaning my gnat-infested kitchen. halloween is this weekend and the buzz is already humming around iv. i dont have any midterms post-halloween so i will have free reign this weekend. ok now i really have to finish my paper.

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[27 Sep 2005|09:13pm]
[ mood | nostalgic ]

I'm posting to prove that I still exist. After not going back to the Grove for the summer it kind of got me all nostalgic about you guys. From what I can tell you all are doing well beyond my expectations and I'm so happy to hear that everything is falling into place for us all.

I've been doing well here. Sometimes my priorities are slightly askew which has gotten me into a little trouble with grades every now and then but nothing that Stephanie can't handle (and it's disgusting that Stephanie felt the need to talk in the third person there). I had my 21st birthday which was a blast. Being 21 is awesome because in the passing of one day, the problem of finding alcohol that we have had to deal with for over 20 years was solved. Threw a cocktail party and crammed a lot of my friends into the tiny apartment that I now reside in. It's a much better living situation than last year because it doesn't flood in here! I also bought a kitty. We named her Riley Kiddo Johnson and she is freakin psychotic because she's only ten weeks. She runs around my apartment like she owns the damn thing and doesn't let me or Andrea go to sleep at night. But she's worth it. I got promoted at work to server and that's been going well for the last couple of months except last week I missed a shift by an hour cuz I was drunk and now I'm on a semi-probation period. But it's all going well and they love me there cuz I upsell wine like a bitch. So you see, they can't fire me. I'm indespensable.

I still read all of your guys' posts and I'm hoping I will be online a little bit more this year so we can all catch up again. But for now, I love you all and have a great day.

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[13 Mar 2005|08:26pm]
[ mood | curious ]

I had a really rough weekend full of bumps and bruises and there's still one more night to go. Tonight I'm going bowling with my work friends for one of the girl's birthdays. Oh yea, working with insanely gorgeous guys makes for bowling with work friends oh so entertaining. Unfortunately I really should not be going because I am so behind for finals. But I got guilt tripped into it so studying will have to wait for tomorrow. I'm thinking of actually waking up to go study like at some god-awful hour in the morning.

PS: I live in a movie. Only in a movie can you live in a place like my apartement, which has extremely paper thin walls, and then have a deejay who practices techno all day long move in next door to drave you insane. Ugh.

I love victoria secret.

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I know we're too cool now but still... [22 Oct 2004|01:34pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

I'm so proud to know you. I roxy our friendship and playing videogames for hours on end.

Bob Dylan is such an icon. Peace.

I'm going to Lancaster this weekend to visit my sister who is playing a softball tournament down there. I'm really excited to see her.

Back to work...

All I have been listening to is Postal Service lately. I thought it was a phase but I think it could be serious.

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[01 Sep 2004|11:37am]
[ mood | optimistic ]

I'm going to triple major in history, political science with an international relations emphasis, and law and society with a minor in french. I think I'm insane but my motivation to succeed has returned to me via the mind blowing class that is History 4A. I feel like that class is the one class that people always talk about that changed their college experience. My direction has come to me finally. I was starting to get a little worried that my recent apathy I so admirably displayed last spring quarter was going to make a permanent home in my soul. While I will still continue my ways of late in SB, it will be with a devotion to my schoolwork that has seen no precedence. I'm so excited for the next three years and I go to an academic advising meeting tomorrow to see if my dream is feasible. I hope it is.

Jennifer is my saving grace in Santa Barbara.

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[11 Aug 2004|11:08am]
[ mood | hopeful ]

I thought summer school, like school itself, was gonna blow but I'm actually enjoying the whole package that is summer school in IV. I really like the feeling of going to class and actually being interested in what's being taught. It kinda refreshes me. Then I just come home and we find something to do for the rest of the day and then get ready for the night. It's a good thing we got going here.

Today I need to go figure out where to wash my clothes. We don't have a laundry room in our apartement. That totally sucks. Cuz if we did I'd charge for the use of the machines haha.

I was supposed to go to Santa Cruz this weekend to meet up with the Creedon's but my music class my foil all my plans. I have to take, and do good on, the quiz and if it's on Thursday then I'm going to Santa Cruz but if it's on Friday then it's not worth the drive. So if I end up going to Santa Cruz, maybe Ktea, Carly, Diego, and "fill in the blank of a very dear friend" should come visit me.

I'm starting to get irritated...

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Replacement [08 Aug 2004|12:14am]
[ mood | optimistic ]

Have no fear for Castro and Hudson's replacement is here...already

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A Eulogy of Sorts [07 Aug 2004|01:13pm]
[ mood | sad ]

To all of you who were blessed by the wonderful yet tragically short life of Castro and Hudson, I regret to inform you of his passing. Unfortunately, despite the brilliance Castro and Hudson showed in their life, they could never survive the tragic fall to their death from atop the counter of the new apartement. Castro and Hudson were born in Berkeley, California and for one night, brought together old friends like never before. Then, they made the long journey back to their summer home in Elk Grove, where again, the dynamic duo managed to revive old friendships, start new ones, and make the night a more enjoyable experience for many alike. Finally, Castro and Hudson survived the long journey back to Santa Barbara where they hoped to take a permanent residence. Castro and Hudson were getting caught up in the hectic life of those crazy Santa Barbarians and after a night of constant use and the emptying of one's stash, the pair knew they couldn't uphold this lifestyle for long. So to their death, they fell. This is one last goodbye, from the owner herself, thank you for supplying ample good times...to Castro and Hudson I humbly raise my glass...

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Adjustment Period My Ass [03 Aug 2004|03:00pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

So I have definatly not had any problem getting readjusted to going back to school. While the school part does blow I am having a great time in SB so it's not even that big of a deal. We already had a pretty chill party and are on our way to having a great year. Except for Soren. No explanation needed there.

Anyway, don't feel like writing too much but wanted y'all to know that all is well in SB and I miss/think about you guys. Bye. For now.

Ktea come to us soon!

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Do I Have to Grow Up? [23 Jul 2004|06:48pm]
[ mood | drained ]

So I'm on hold with the cable company trying to get cable in our new apartement. And I feel so old because I'm getting gas and electricity and all that good adult shit in our house. I don't even know how gas and electric billing works. Hey as long as the lights turn on and the showers are hot, I don't really worry about it.

Next week is my last five days of my god awful, energy draining job. Too bad I've been working all summer and haven't gotten one paycheck yet. We get paid monthly so I feel like I've been working for free. I can't wait til August 10th!

I don't know what to do tonight. Stay in, go out, I don't even know...someone call me and make my decision easy.

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[22 Jul 2004|11:25pm]

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Take Five [22 Jul 2004|12:22pm]
[ mood | irritated ]

So I have a two hour lunch break at work and I get paid for one of those hours to sit at home and update lj...

Nothing really big going on. Hung out with Evan a little here and there...smoked some hookah here and there (which I think I might have to purchase now...I hella want a hookah for the house).

It's all winding down...I can feel it.

I wish people weren't designed to create their own drama. It's just fuckin life it's not that big of a deal...this shit happens to everyone at least once, get over it.

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New [19 Jul 2004|10:23pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

...laptop that is. I have such wonderful parents. Even after they wanted to get me a laptop in the first place and I said no, they still get me one after I realize they were right the whole time. I'm so greatful to have such wonderful parents and I don't know how I'm going to ever be a better parent then my mom and dad are to me.

Anyway, today started the last session of work. Praise the lord but that also means I'm leaving Elk Grove in only two weeks. That leaves only two more weeks of fun Stephanie and "fill in the name of a good friend" bonding time. Hope to see everyone before I leave. I keep hitting the cap locks key. That's kinda irritating.

Um, other than that nothing really exciting. I got a comforter and sheet set for my bed in my new place. I also got a little night stand. Now all I need is a desk for my COOL NEW LAPTOP to go on! All right talk to you all later.

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Fcuk [15 Jul 2004|06:07pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

So I guess I should update about it.

I'm single and it was probably not only one of the hardest decisions I've ever had to make, but one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. But it was also something I had to do. Our differences caught up with us and it was simply just time. Although, I wish things could stay the same, I wish we could talk like we always did, I hope his friends won't hate me, and I hope we will be comfortable around each other when we return to SB. I miss...

Thanks Diego, Ktea, and Cindy.

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scotty doesnt know [10 Jul 2004|10:54pm]
[ mood | embarrassed ]

i love having nights that are so embarassing for you and you're hella glad that you spent them with people you hella love and don't care about being embarassed in front of.


- full house drinking games: every time someone hugs, uncle jesse talks/touches/combs his hair, a hiddeous outfit/scrunchie is worn, joey does an impersenation, a lesson is learned, danny talks about cleaning products, and so many more...

- adams house: the randoms i saw, the iced tea vodka, eric wearing his shirt inside out without realizing it, erin already being drunk off her two shots, adam of course

- cindy and diego screaming out: im stephanie johnson and im a republican who likes to fuck....riiiight

- carly having us over and watching us make fools out of ourselves and then video taping it

- spending the night at ktea's house and having to be reminded/convinced that the stuff ktea said we did last night really happened

all in all last night and brian's party made for a good week.

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